Goodbye Old, Hello New.

It's New Years Eve.
There is snow on the ground, and the sky is a light gray color.
It's a funny thing, new years eve. People ask you how your year was, what made it good or bad. Was this the best year of your life? How can that actually be answered?
I have failed, been terrified, fallen, cried, ran away, and been broken to pieces this year. If you look at mere events, it would appear to have been the worst year of my life. However, I value every tear, every heart-breaking experience, every fight-because I have learned some defining lessons that ultimately make the difference between a little girl and an adult. It's high school, things that are really wonderful can sometimes become extremely painful. But was it worth it? Was it worth the heartache, the anxiety, the stress, to get to where we are now? Well, I'm still here, and I have a smile on my face and an excitement in my heart for the upcoming year.

Things to look forward to in 2010:
1. No longer writing the number nine on all of my papers. (my least favorite number)
2. Senior Trip
3. Prom
4. Graduating High School
5. Turning 18.
6. Establishing my new life at college.
Who knows, maybe 2010 will be the 'Best Year of My Life'.
Happy New Year, Everyone.

Bitter(not so)sweet.

I hate couples. I hate their hand-holding, hugging, smiling-i hate it all. I hate when my friends text their boyfriends, I hate it when they tell me about their awesome dates. And most of all, I hate beautiful snowy days and lovely holiday plans, because I spend them alone. I hate that things haven't gotten better with time, I hate that sometimes I want to go running back to the arms I've missed, and I hate that Christmas Eve is in two days and my closest friends will be spending it with their boyfriends, while I sit at home missing everything. I hate the mistakes I've made, and I hate that I have to blame the otherwise wonderful season and my friends' happiness for my self-inflicted bitterness.

Baby it's cold outside...

I would rather have the stomach flu than a cold. My eyes are watery, my nose is runny, i keep sneezing, and i am exhausted. Not to mention the fact that high school doesn't exactly accommodate for the sickly. For example, I brought a bunch of tissues in a ziploc bag for today, however i'm running out already and it's only second period. So I've been using school tissues some periods and my puffs other periods. The only problem is that right about now my nose feels like it's on fire. School tissues are basically thin sheets of paper. They hurt! And plus, every ten minutes I'm sneezing, which just grosses me out in itself, and means I must go get more razor tissues. I hate the cold! At least the stomach flu means you can stay home from school because people don't want to be throwing up. But you don't get much sympathy for having the common cold-which is ten times worse in my opinion.
I just feel like screaming send me home! I'm going to infect the school with my cold, so send me home! But I can't go home because if I stay home from school, I have to call out of work, and I can't call out of work unless I'm dying.
And to add to the annoyance, I have my nose pierced. Imagine blowing your nose fifteen times a class period, with a piece of metal inside your nose.

Gluten-Free.

I'm allergic to gluten. This means that I cannot eat anything with flour, wheat, or barley in it. So no bread, pizza, pasta, cake, cookies, pretzels, and thickened soups, among other things. If I do eat something with flour in it, I get really sick for a few hours, and I'll see double of everything and get a terrible headache and really dizzy. I get flourdrunk. I love telling people this because the responses are hysterical. Most of the time I just get widened eyes, followed by 'then what do you eat?!', but the best responses are the questions.
Question of the day: Can you still eat french fries?!
Yes, friend, I can eat fried potatoes.

Hannukah, Chanukkah, Hanukka, Chanuka...

So I'm really excited because this weekend I will be celebrating Hannukah with a friend from school and her family. I've always been interested in different celebrations and holidays, but i've never taken part in any other than my own; Christian holidays. I think it'll be really cool to observe the different traditions and the games and foods and such. And really, I have very little knowledge on Jewish culture and Hannukah. All I know is there is a menorah and a dreidel and you win chocolate money. So it'll be really cool to see legit aspects of this holiday. I'll keep ya updated.