Sexting

I think it's funny that everything in a teenager's life revolves around technology. Even being intimate with a boyfriend or girlfriend has been transferred onto technology. But, what's not so funny, is what's going on in the technology. Sexting. Honestly it just grosses me out. Nothing on cell phones or on the internet is ever private- so why would someone risk it? I don't understand why a teenager would take a naked picture of themself and then send it somewhere and expect it not to get around. That is pornography. It's interesting that the families of the teenagers who have taken the photos defend the teens, saying that they're just kids, they don't mean any harm. Well, imagine being that fourteen year old girl after a naked picture of her was sent to every phone in her high school class. No harm done? Yeah, right. They're just kids, they need to learn that they can't do that. They need to know the dangers and the consequences for their actions. About the case in Nebraska- I don't really know how I feel about it. An eighteen year old guy sent a sexual picture to his 14 year old female friend who requested it, and now that boy is registered as a sex offender. So all his life he is going to be looked at as a pedophile because he sexted a willing friend. I think that being registered as a sex offender is too harsh in this scenario. I do believe, however, that this boy should be punished and held accountable, but not to this degree.

That's What Faith Can Do.

Today both of my parents took me aside and told me while crying that a family member heard about how I was in a dilemma about college and so they decided that they want to loan me the money for my college tuition to Gordon. I can't even express how much this gesture means to me. After being so unsure and terrified and upset about what college to go to, this feels like a miracle. After praying about this and feeling like no one heard how upset and scared I was about it, I feel really thankful to realize that God hears me and He's taking care of me.

it Never To Helps To Hear That Things Will Be Okay

A senior girl died yesterday, from my school district. I didn't know her, never met her. I can't even imagine what these students are feeling. She was eighteen years old, just eighteen. We graduate in three months. This is supposed to be one of the best times of our lives, the end of senior year. And now, this girl...she'll never go to her senior prom, never go to graduation, never go to college, never have all the experiences that I complain about. I feel so guilty for complaining about college and school and prom when I am so lucky to be breathing right now. I think it's time to start realizing that no one is entitled to a long life, no one is entitled to life at all. This could be the end, so don't waste it. I wish that the students of this school didn't have to mourn yet another death, and I wish there was something that could be said or done to help the people I know that are hurting over this...but there isn't. I really don't know what else to say.

When It Rains On This Side Of Town It Touches Everything.

Despite all of the craziness that's going on, it's still a wonderful day. I love dark rainy days, cause it's quiet and serene. It's like a deep-thinking day where you realize how beautiful the earth is and how lucky you are to be alive. I'm not going to waste my time freaking out about what ifs, when I can sit in awe of the now.

Gordon...or bust? Oh well, bust will have to work.

Life is Unexpected. I have planned to go to Gordon College for two years now- I got the keychain, the car decal, the shirts, even the sweatpants. But, right before I sent in my deposit for my spot in the fall, my mom decided to recalculate our funds-just in case. And as it turns out, we can't afford it.
So...what now? I have two other schools that I have been accepted to, neither of which compare to Gordon. But there has to be a reason that we found this out, there has to be a reason why I'm not going to Gordon. I refuse to believe that this happened by chance or it's just 'life'. My other two choices are Eastern University which is a little less than an hour from my home and Liberty, which is six or seven. I haven't visited Liberty since I was thirteen, so my dad is taking me to visit in about a week. But, then I have to take off more days from school, more days from work, which makes my grades go down and my income less and it's like everything is piling up.
I visited Eastern in November and I didn't like it that much, but to be fair I already thought that I was going to Gordon. So I'm visiting that school a week from today. The reason I'm doing it so quickly is because if I have any chance of going to Eastern or Liberty, I'd need to accept the scholarships they are offering which expire april first if I don't committ to one or the other. So I have around two and a half weeks to make one of the most important decisions of my life.
It's not that I'm afraid of going to college anymore-I'm not. I'm afraid of being buried in student loans for the rest of my life. So where do i go? Virginia? Philadelphia? Boston?
How do people make these decisions?